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This long distance thing is an emotional roller coaster.  All I want is to put my arms around you, hold on and never let go.  Instead I find myself in a chair on my porch watching the sun go down and staring into the sky, trying to imagine what you could be doing under that same sky as tears fill my eyes.  Why did my heart have to choose someone so far away?  Didn't it know that loving from a distance is harder than loving near?  My idealism says that love conquers all things, even time, even distance, but do you love me?  I know that you don't worry about things that you cannot immediately change, and that you don't worry about our relationship, but I can't help but feel like this relationship is in limbo, like we're waiting for it to really start but we don't know when or how.  And I know I'm being emotional right now and that when I'm emotional I tend to blow things out of proportion, but I think I need to know that I'm important to you and that you love me.