wishing to be bookish?

My optimism regarding work has been failing lately.  I thought that after the holidays I would return to my regular delighted self, but I think I have hit the wall where retail is concerned.  I was talking to a good friend, probably my best friend, tonight about this frustration and not feeling satisfied where I am at -- and I hate not feeling satisfied where I am, I am a silver linings girl through and through, always looking at the bright side and pushing on.  But I never wanted to work in retail as a career.  This was a job for me, something to do and pay off student loans while I was figuring out what I really wanted to do.  I didn't realize the toll it would take on me, on my personal life.  I have no personal life.  And I feel like I have lost my mind.  I don't want to live this way.  I only have one life and I don't want to waste it doing something that drains me so completely when I am not there.  I asked my friend what he could see me doing -- and he said working as a librarian or actually doing art, either doing my own thing, or having a job as an artist - working in a collaborative team.  I've definitely been thinking about doing the independent artist thing, in fact, in my frustration with life today I spent some time on Amazon and ordered five or six books on starting your own business/small business/business plans.  (If I'm going to do it, I'm going to do it right.)  When I got off the phone with my friend, I got online and looked up library and information science masters programs.  According to Forbes, library and information science is a waste of a master's degree, though I think they are looking at it from a money angle, and you won't get rich being a librarian.  But from a personal mental health perspective, I think it may be a wonderful option.  To become a "professional librarian" you need to have a degree in it; it's hard to get hired otherwise.  I found a couple programs that have completely online options, like Texas Women's University, and would probably go that route if I decided to become a librarian... so that I don't have to move just to get another degree.  The only annoying thing is of course having to take the GRE which feels like an annoying hassle, though I'm sure I would do fine on the test.

I dunno.  Librarianship seems like it might be a wonderful sort of career.  Books, crochet, ceramics... bliss.  They all sort of go together.