Taking Responsibility

When I tell people about how I quit my job and am trying to figure out how to start my own business, I always give a caveat that I will take some time then find another day job.  It's not that I don't think I can make it as a small business owner, though I do know that it takes time and a lot of work.  Part of me is nervous about not having a constant cash flow.  However, I don't think that's it, either.  I think I'm trying to prove to myself, and maybe everyone else, that quitting my day job was not irresponsible.  I have a strong work ethic.  I always have, and for some reason it's hard to feel like working for myself is actual work.  (This, despite spending all day photographing, uploading, blogging, etc, trying to rev up business for my Etsy endeavor.)  I never want to feel like I'm taking advantage of my parents who are letting me live at home right now, and I never want to feel like I am taking advantage of anyone else, either.  I highly value hard work.  Because of this, I felt very apprehensive about quitting my job even though it was not the right one for me anymore.  I got to a point where I felt like I was the slave of the company I worked for and that needed to change.  I have always had ambitions, and it was time to try following them.  Quitting felt like failure to me.  I know that's hardly fair.  I was not a failure at my job.  I excelled at it.  So, here I find myself, working hard at home daily to start a business that I feel I have to justify to myself every day.  I know I shouldn't feel that way.  I know I need to learn to value my work more highly, and I do value it, but I think I'm still learning my value and the value of what my hands create.