broken pieces

when will you come
gather up the broken pieces
take some glue
patch them up again?

when will you come
sew my torn heart
patch it up with loving care
make me whole again?

i'm tired of the broken jagged pieces my heart has become. i think i find satisfaction in what is today, but then i again remember of what once was. i know that most of my posts seem to be about that same thing, and when will i get it? but there is a deep sadness in me, as if someone died. it's not just about leaving what was for so long my home, and it's not just about going to a new school in a new place, or about leaving my friends that were so close my heart... and it's not even about my parents leaving me soon... and my sister going off to grad school and no longer being as close by... it's kind of all of that put together. i was hugging a friend today and then i began to think about my friend steph... she gave me a hug every morning before school... and i miss that... and i miss her. then i started thinking about who i would room with next year, and i had no name come to mind... and i started thinking about my friends again and wishing they were near... and i thought about how i don't really have a group of friends i'm totally comfortable with who i do everything with... and i just couldn't handle it any more.