bliss

maybe everything will work out ok. maybe I should just let God have his hands in my life... and not try to make it on my own. even though that is hard when it feels like the world is spinning out of control. I still don't have a roommate for next year, but that is for God to bring some amazing situation into my life -- and even if it's another imperfect roommate situation, I know that there is a purpose in it. My first roommates were great people, and I'm still amazing friends with one of them. My roommates now are amazing people -- I just don't know them well. I just pray that I won't come out of my second year having had a total of 8 roommates total, since so far I've had four... and I don't want a repeat of this year.
Then there are my classes -- which are going well!... even though they keep me so busy. but busy isn't so bad... and I was so stressed about getting to home depot... yet when I decided just to walk alone the couple blocks... it was so freeing. It was so freeing not having to be tied down by another's schedule, but just to walk alone and freely think and ponder... and to just walk around home depot for a couple hours so I could find everything I needed for my lamp project. There was just such a peace and a calm in the stillness and solitude of those moments. I look at the world more deeply and clearly when it's just me and God... less busyness... less stress.
And then, I spent forever stressing about what I would do this summer... and on a whim applied to Mt. Hermon camps... and I had given up hope that they would call me... and started thinking of alternative plans.... but then this afternoon as I was walking to my math class, my phone rang... and I answered it, and it was a lady from Mt. Hermon calling for a short interview for the crafts job... and she basically said it was mine if I was still free. :) I'm so excited... I went online and started looking up lanyard and beading patterns... and I'm thinking of taking up knitting... so I can teach that along with crochet if anyone wants to learn!!... I feel like it will be my heart poured out! I know it will be a lot of work, but I also think it will be incredible. bliss.
In Christ there are moments of bliss... living outside of Christ there is only this constant wishing and worrying and stressing and... I hate that.