This evening I hung out with people in an apartment watching 80s movies. Awesome. I probably drank four cups of coffee. Then I drove 25 miles home. I learned that driving on caffeine when my body is only tricked into thinking it's awake is a kind of scary thing. Also, my tank was low, and I didn't want to stop for gas. It requires much more focus than my typical to-and-from work autopilot. I don't know what it's like to be drunk, but I'm sure that driving on caffeine and tired has at least a minorly similar effect. It's just harder to concentrate on driving when I'm in a state where I can't fully focus... and if I am having trouble focusing it takes that much more energy to actually focus.
Age came up again tonight and I keep wondering why I always feel like I have to prove myself to be my age or older -- I didn't have to, and that wasn't really my focus, I just thought about it again. It's like age is somehow an achievement. Also, I'm not entirely sure what it means to be 23. How am I supposed to act to be my age? How am I supposed to look? Why do people who come into my workplace think I'm in high school when I look at high school kids and they seem just like that to me - kids. (Besides the fact that to even have my job I have to be at least 18.) Why do I love throwing the "when I was in college" thing out there? Oh wait, I do actually know that one -- Yes, ma'am, I may look 15 to you, but somehow I already graduated high school, and graduated college with... what was that? a four year degree? I'm either older than you think or I'm really dang smart... you choose. ;)
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