Wednesday, May 15, 2013

doctor visits and personality functions

Two things, some comments on the primary function Fi in socionics and thoughts on giving blood.  So, I'll actually start with the latter first.  I had to have some blood drawn today for some tests for a physical exam that I'm doing because I was told I should.  I haven't been to the doctor in 5 years.  I tend to avoid healthcare whenever possible, not for financial reasons, though I'm sure that's a small factor -- mainly because for some reason I am wary of doctor's visits and don't find them necessary to my well-being.  I go in today and the lab technician asks, as she tries to find my veins if I've ever had problems having blood taken before; I said no, I don't think so, and she proceeded to have a hard time taking my blood.  I told her to try my other arm and see if it was any easier, because I would rather have my dominant arm slightly out of commission and have the process be faster and less painful... so she tried my right arm.  She poked me and could not find the vein.  Take two.  She switched to a smaller needle thing and poked me somewhere else that hurt a heck of a lot more, but at least she got some blood out.  It took forever.  There were three vials for tests and she couldn't get enough for all three, so instead of trying to poke me yet another place, she sort of divided what she had between them.  gah.  do not like doctor visits.  that was certainly re-affirmed.  In retrospect, I realize that I've never needed to have that much blood taken before.  For school physicals growing up overseas, they always took a lot less and they never seemed to have problems.  But I learned something today.  I am probably not a good candidate for donating blood.  Which is fine.  The thought always made me squeamish anyway.  If I have better experiences down the road with blood tests I may change this declaration, but for now, no way man.

On to Fi.  Possibly Ti as well, but I am not so familiar with that function.  I am realizing that one of the things that bugs me most about my interactions with people who have Fi as their primary function, that is, introverted feeling, is that they seem to make quick judgments about situations and feel the need to share these judgments.  With Si as my primary function my first instinct is not to judge a person or situation but to gather information.  Maybe this difference in natural response explains why my interactions with Fi primary types can frustrate me so quickly.  I speak with them not requesting a judgment but expecting them to just absorb information as I would do.  I probably need to change these expectations.

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