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Is it wrong that I want a grand gesture next time?  I want someone to come and sweep me off my feet and I'll be there in his arms shocked like, "wait, me?  you choose me?!"  I'm tired of the emotional turmoil that comes along with realizing that I'm 25 and that I might just be alone forever.  Am I an idealist in this?  Absolutely.  Does that mean that I'll be alone forever?  I hope not.  I know plenty of people who have absolutely sweet love stories, so I know it's not unattainable.  Is it wrong that I want that for me?  I don't think so.  Does this suck because it means I need to be patient?  Yes.  Does this suck because my timing and God's timing doesn't always line up and he knows best?  Yes.  Will I stop looking?  I'll try, I think I'll be more sane that way.  Will I stop hoping?  Probably never.