Talking about the future and vague possibilities makes me anxious. Like, right now I'm breaking down crying. Sure, there are other factors, but the future thing is what triggered it. I don't know if it's because I don't like change or because I like knowing what's going to happen and with the future I can't know, but it doesn't bode well with me. I wonder if I were to unpack this anxiety what sort of trauma I would uncover? My best guess is that it's related to being uprooted frequently as a child and an extreme dislike of change that I wasn't in control of. I don't do well with change.
Thoughts to ponder. Time to sleep, once I can dry my eyes.
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