sticking it out?

The sermon this morning was on sticking it out in marriage, and it was a great sermon.  I kept getting distracted vaguely thinking about my own theoretical someday marriage.  It's hard not to focus on singleness when I have friends getting married and having kids and here I am, me, figuring out life as a single lady.  It's tough.  I know marriage is tough, too.  Life is tough.  I would rather do life with someone else and we can work through challenging things together than to do life alone.  A friend the other day was asking me what I wanted to do afterwards if I were to pursue a world arts degree, and I told her I didn't have a specific plan.  I have a list of things I could do, that I'd be willing to do, but I don't have a specific life plan.  She gave me a hard time about the no plan thing, and I was quiet for a minute then broke down and told her that I "don't have a life plan" not just because of the reasons I had previously stated about how we can't possibly know the future, but because plans sometimes rely on other people.  If I could have my way, my plan would be to get married and be a stay at home wife, mother, and artist, but that requires a guy being in my life who falls in love with and marries me.  In the meantime I can't just wait around waiting for life to happen, I have to make choices as a single lady figuring out life as a single lady.  Right now that involves taking more classes that help to unite my passion for art and my desire to follow God in my life and seeking to be closer with God.  I don't want to be single forever, but I desire a lifetime marriage and family with a man, not just a wedding for the sake of it, and that means waiting.  The waiting thing sucks, but I guess entering a marriage with the wrong person would suck even more.